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21 August 2002 @ 06:38 pm
I just heard from Lisa  
I haven't talked with her for about a year. Apparently she called my Mother to get my number. We talked for about half an hour. When somebody has been a major part of your life, it's hard not to feel any compassion, no matter what drove you apart.

She's getting by. Things are tough for her, and she's pushing the lower limits of poverty level (as always), but she's getting by. Her daughter was born a little over two months ago, and she decided not to have a paternity test since Jacob is "effectively" the father, and they haven't seen Dale for a while. She is getting along better with her family these days.

The birth was a C-section, and the baby (I forget her name) has already needed heart surgery. They need to move in with Jacob's mother until they get cought up with bills, but Lisa seems to have a good attitude, and didn't ask for any money or anything.

I updated her on my life. This has been a Good Year for me, a nice counterpoint to last year. I started the year by starting a relationship with an amazing woman, a girlfriend that has consistently made me happy (I ried not to hammer this home too much, that would be hurtful). I have a job I like that pays enough with a company I'm proud to work for. I've made a lot of friends in the past year that really enrich my life.

I reminded Lisa that I still have some of her kitchenware. We're going to meet for lunch a week from Sunday so I can give it to her, and maybe catch up some more.

Wow. I've loved her more obsessively than I ever thought possible. I've hated her with more passion than I've ever hated anyone before or since, and I've despized her as a pathetic annoyance that kept creeping back into my life. I think there's still some mild pity and disgust, but most of the other emotions have been burnt out. After everything, it will be odd to see her with a baby. That will probably hurt in ways I don't want to think about right now.

Of course, I'll invite phoenixfyre to come to the lunch and meet Lisa, but I'm not sure she wants to or can. I'm not sure what I would choose in an analagous situation.
A Beautiful Disasterprairieflower on August 22nd, 2002 10:14 am (UTC)
Funny. I was just thinking about her, and how long its been since you've heard from her and stuff.